Thursday, March 29, 2012

Last journey: Raja Ashman Shah (1958-2012), Mazlan Nordin (1925-2012)

Sheikh Raja Ashman Shah

Update:
Another blessed Friday ... another soul has flown.
 إِنَّا لِلّهِ وَإِنَّـا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعونَ
Al-fatihah. My deepest condolences to the family of HRH Raja Ashman Shah ibni Sultan Azlan Shah, the Raja Kecil Sulung of Perak (1958-2012). May Allah (swt) grant them strength and patience in their moment of bereavement.
My most sincere appreciation of his advice to "have only Allah in your heart" and to "stop complaining, consider yourself lucky" during my irregular visits to the zawiyah at Damansara Heights for the Naqshahbandi al-Haqqani zikir sessions.  
For more information, do read http://tengkusyah.blogspot.com/2012/03/raja-dato-seri-raja-ashman-shah-mangkat.html


It's been a week since one of Malaysian Journalistic Giant left us.
It always takes me awhile to deal with loss and grief.
Especially if the deceased is a public figure, whom I admire from afar.
His intellect as a journalism mentor, his prolific writings, his ability to write equally well in English and Bahasa, his wide readings, his concise analyses, his tenacity for sharing his take on the world around him, even to his last day on earth ...
Innalillahi wa innalillahi raji'un.
Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh beliau dan himpunkannya bersama roh mereka yang beriman. Amin
http://www.ukm.my/news/index.php/ms/berita-kampus/1006.html

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Stairway To Heaven

You may ask, what does a humanitarian visit to a village in Battambang has to do with one of Led Zeppelin's greatest hits?
Of course, Robert Plant's lyrics have been analysed, dissected and interpreted to refer to a society obsessed with materialism. But I have my own more literal meaning of the song title and lyrics to refer to the pursuit of 'buying' or 'investing' in our 'space' or 'lot' in Heaven, Jannatul Naim, Syurga Firdausi, Paradise.
It may indeed be a parallel or the inverse side of our obsession with the material world - with the scramble for power and wealth, along with the accumulation of gadgets, designer labels, 'stuff' - and our place in the sun, or the lime light.  Just translate or convert that into a fixation on the number of points in terms of heavenly rewards we have earned or the elevation in our spiritual status which will put us above our fellow brethren.
I'm sure many of us have gone through times in our lives when we were haunted by our conscience, guilt and remorse, compelling us to seek redemption and atonement of our past sins.  Times when our souls yearned to be close to our Khaliq. Times when we simply wished we could do away with worldly desires.
But being the social animals that we are, once we are in our own cliques, circles of friends or part of a spiritual fraternity, the herd mentality kicks in and we start to make a distinction between 'us' and 'them'. The haves and the have-nots in the realm of spiritual hierarchy, the more devout and the lesser ones. And how to climb up that spiritual ladder to God's Heavens.
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Just like believers of other faiths, many Muslims now believe that they can buy or bribe their way to Heaven's Gate. And there are indeed ustazs/ustazahs (who increasingly now double up as brand ambassadors and motivational speakers) who tell them that money does make a difference, from ensuring their mode of transportation (cows, goats or sheep) to Jannah to protecting them from being preys to proselytising Evangelists.
Talking about ustazs and ustazahs, in my quest to be 'a better Muslim', I have met many who compromised their scruples to please or entertain their customers, clients or members of the audience. Instead of advising their students to refrain from indulging in material excesses, for example, they in turn talked about their expensive purchases to keep up with the well-heeled congregation.
I'm also amazed at the naivete and gullibility of many ladies who patronise talk series at the mosques or lecture halls or enrol themselves in Arabic/tajwid/feqah classes. Pray tell me, how can I have 'istiqamah' (commitment) when I see blatant exploitation and abuses by the speakers and teachers whom I have entrusted my learning to?
Now, when it comes to charity, surely even ustazs have to be made accountable for the money that their students have collected and given to them to improve education among the children in their villages of origin. I, for one, will not rely on blind faith alone when I hear a flippant, verbal report about some MYR40k being 'lost in transit'.  But it's not an enviable position to be when I'm the only one or among the few who could see past the emotional smokescreen.
In any case, what started as an ambitious documentary project to capture the life of a former child refugee made good and the launch of a madrasah (built from donations from my fellow Arabic classmates) at his childhood kampung fizzled off when the battery of my video camera failed to be recharged. Just as well, I don't suppose any producer in his right mind will buy a 'doco' on the 'opening' of a incomplete school building (gaping door and window frames, sans tables and chairs).
To add salt to injury, only two hours were allocated for our visit to Angkor Thom and Angkor Wat (since we were not supposed to be in awe of any monument built to honour Hindu and Buddhist deities). Forget about visits to the museums, handicraft centres or cultural performances - they were not even listed in the itinerary.
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A rather patchy recollection of Battambang:
    
The statue of the prince who lost his fighting stick in the river, Stung Sanke, which cuts across the predominantly rural province. We were told that Battambang literally means 'the lost stick'.
The markets in Battambang province reminds me of the 'pekan sari' (day markets) in rural Selangor. You can find fresh produce, such as 'limau' (tangerines) in the big baskets in the foreground, as well as assorted preserved meats, such as charcoal-broiled pheasants, and fermented fish and shrimps from the languid Sanke river.
  
Pity, we didn't get to ride on this make-shift bamboo train.

We passed by these flimsy huts every morning, afternoon and evening on our way to Kampung Nuria, where we had our meals, from the Stung Sanke Hotel where we stayed throughout our three-day visit to Battambang province. Many of these ragged riverine settlements, including our ustaz's family hovel, were swept away by strong currents which surged through the swollen river during major floods. On our last evening there, most of the entourage except for me, Kak Julie (Sudiro) and another lady, went on a boat ride which took them to the cleaner, up scale down town area and back to the derelict Muslim district.

The river bank in the down town area during the Annual Water Festival, normally held in October.

It may not be the esplanade by the Seine but it might be quite pleasant to walk by the riverside in down town Battambang. There was a bridge "that Mahathir built" over the Stung Sanke but I've yet to receive pictures via e-mail or FB from fellow travellers or to get someone to edit my video recording.

This must be the cleanest part of the province, apart from the diplomatic enclave which we viewed from our hotel room.

I always look forward to greet the twin sentinels guarding the main entrance of the Stung Sanke Hotel as soon as we alighted from the 'tuk tuks' which took us to and from the ustaz's relatives' homes or the surrounding areas.
 
It was always a delight to behold the 'dewi apsaras' (celestial nymphs) in the cool, sophisticated interior of the hotel lobby after a long, hot day in the rustic, dusty outdoors.

On the fourth day, we finally managed to depart from Kampung Nuria and Battambang province and head back to Siem Reap. After a heavy buffet lunch of 'nasi campur' at Restoren d'Wau, we checked in at the pink lodging house in the background.

Over lunch at d'Wau, we (me and my room mate, Dato' Hasnah) encountered and chatted with a couple of Malaysian visiting professors from the Asia-Europe Institute (UM) and the owner/operator of a Malaysian resort hotel about 1km around the corner from our lodging. He invited us to view his premises when we returned from sightseeing and shopping.

It was past 3PM when we finally boarded the coach that took us to the heritage complex which showcased  Angkor Thom and Angkor Wat. It took just a few minutes to register and have our individual photos taken for the visitor passes. The road that led us to Angkor Thom was rather serene, with tall trees and thick bushes concealing scattered ruins and broken statues on both sides. The parking area, on the left of the South Gate, was jam packed with tour buses, vans, tuk-tuks and various modes of transportations. On the right, by the hillside and under the shady trees, were several souvenir stalls and an elephant stand. As I walked past the stone statues that lined the road bridge to the ornately carved archway, I felt like a brazen intruder - touching, sensing, capturing whichever parts of the once sacred temple that I could lay my hands and eyes on.
Angkor Wat - the largest religious structure in the world; you don't really get a sense of that until you're there - it feels as large as it looks
This is not the best shot of Angkor Wat. The discoloured crumbling parapets, the randomly laid out pathway to the shrine, which seemed to be shrouded in some old, mossy gauze. High or late noon is not the best time to view the architectural enigma. It is better viewed at a distance, especially at sunrise or sunset. The moat which surrounds the temple complex, with water lilies covering its murky waters, adds to the mystique.
         
NB: I'm indebted to youtube and various websites/blogs for the video clip and photographs in this post. 

Monday, January 2, 2012

A historical thriller by a legal practitioner


It was the cover with the ‘wayang kulit’ characters and the ancient Beruas kingdom on its title that caught my eye.  I read the blurb on the back cover and was intrigued by the quest for the hidden treasures of Malik Al-Mansur (the ruler of Beruas) by three rival groups - unscrupulous colonial officers, ruthless secret society members (Indera Sakti) and the noble custodians (Darul Kubra) of the royal possessions.   
I flipped the back cover to read the author’s brief bio – Iskandar Al-Bakri, a lawyer, with his own practice in Ipoh and a law graduate from ANU (Canberra).  I scanned the chapters and noted that they commenced with pivotal timelines and familiar places which pushed the narrative forward – Balik Pulau, 1823; Penang, 20 August 1824; Klian Pauh; Bota Kanan; Telok Mak Intan ...
I decided that it’s worth to fork out RM24 (readers get a 20 percent discount if they purchase directly from Silverfish) and started to read the first few chapters as soon as I secured a seat at a nearby cafe .  It’s rather easy reading since the writer clearly established the initial scenes, the rising conflicts (Ya’acob’s single-minded decision to avenge his nephew’s death; Fullerton’s, Lowe’s and Duncan’s obsessive hunt for the royal treasures; and the intense competition among the contending parties for Indera Sakti’s coveted leadership), the climax and denouement.  Iskandar was very meticulous in his selection of backdrops, events and character that drove the tale to its end, which could lead to a sequel, possibly titled the Mystery of Kellie’s Castle. 
Readers, even those who pride themselves for having basic knowledge of ancient Malay kingdoms and British colonial intrusions, would appreciate the writer’s thorough description of Malay kampongs, beliefs and practices such as the various schools of ‘silat’ (Silat Gayung, Silat Cekak, i.e. Malay martial arts), benevolent and malevolent beings who live in different dimensions (Bunians and Mambangs) and the social network which bound the East India Co officers. 
As a debut attempt, it’s very commendable.  I certainly look forward for more historical thrillers written by local writers. However, as voiced by another reviewer (http://roslan828.blogspot.com/2011/12/reviewthe-beruas-prophecy.html), it would be beneficial to readers if the publisher were to provide a short interview with Iskandar so as to differentiate the factual and fictional parts    

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Demi Masa


"Demi masa. Sesungguhnya manusia kerugian, melainkan yang beriman dan yang beramal soleh, saling menasihati dalam kebenaran dan saling menasihati dalam kesabaran.”
[al-Ashr [103]: 1-3]
Assalamu'alaikum, sememangnya masa senantiasa menghambat kita. Mungkin dunia akhir zaman, mungkin juga usia yang semakin meningkat. Walau apapun, setiap awal tahun memaksa kita merenung kembali azam yang telah kita tanam tahun lalu - ada yang berhasil, ada yang tidak dan ada yang masih boleh dijadikan kenyataan.
Rasanya baru semalam saya memulakan blog 'Rabiah Hijrah' ini, pada 14 Februari 2011, sebagai mengenang perjalanan hidup seorang ibu yang meninggalkan tempat lahirnya disebabkan keputusan pemimpin yang memaksa penduduk Melayu Singapura membuat pilihan - untuk tetap di pulau itu atau berpindah ke Semenanjung.
Kendatipun terdapat rahmat di sebalik pilihan yang pedih dan adegan perpisahan yang menyedihkan, perhubungan dengan kenangan serta kaum kerabat di tanah tumpah darah bukan seperti debu di mata atau benang kusut yang boleh digunting dan dibuang begitu sahaja. Biarpun jasad jarang berkunjung, namun ingatan pada pengalaman masa lalu - perasaan yang melonjak dan merudum, suasana riang dan suram, suara lunak dan garang, sentuhan halus dan kasar, bau-bauan harum dan hanyir - sering manggamit dan mengimbau hingga sukar dikikis begitu sahaja.
Ada ketika berlaku peristiwa, seperti penyerahan Stesen KTM Tanjong Pagar (antara mercu tanda bukti Singapura dahulunya sebahagian Tanah dan Kepulauan Melayu), memaksa kita meneliti semula liku-liku hidup sekaligus detik-detik penting dalam sejarah bangsa. 
Membuka lembaran tahun baru 2012 ini, saya pautkan video youtube - Tanah Air Beta - yang dikongsikan oleh 'jiran siber', sdr Awang Labu, dalam Kumpulan FB Geylang Serai, Kampungku.  
Selamat menonton, semoga kita mengambil iktibar dari kisah yang dipaparkan, insya'Allah. 

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Moyangs, Monkeys and Fireflies (Moyang, Monyet dan Kelap-Kelip)

What better way to kick off one's birthday milestone than to add another new experience to one's cap?  
Things happened for a reason and I was glad that one of the NBC TV producers whom my daughter had accompanied last October forgot to pay for the Mah Meri mask that she bought from Samri, an Orang Asli wood carver on Carey Island.  
That was exactly the impetus I needed to go on a road trip (with a niece from Singapore) to that precipice off mainland Selangor and top that trip up with peeks at Bukit Melawati and Kampung Kuantan's Frieflies Sanctuary, two items on my 'must-visit' list.    
We arrived at Kampung Orang Asli Sungai Bumbun just before 1PM and headed for Samri's workshop, which was about 5 minutes from the entrance into the village.  Samri was, however, away in Langkawi for the Orang Asli and Peribumi Arts Festival, so his wife Jamilah was there to greet us by the road side in front of their abode.  
Here's an amateurish recording of my interview with her about the types of wood used for the masks and the other carvings which are all tributes to their ancestors, known as Moyang:






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Nyireh Batu, the name of the wood preferred for the carvings which produced the unique wine red or chestnut brown colour, has been rapidly depleting from the surrounding forest since the 1980s. In 2006, there were initiatives by the local authorities and UNDP to replant over 2,000 saplings on over 90 acres of land the island but, unfortunately, the land was taken away by Yayasan Selangor (Rusdi Mustapha, The Malay Mail, 29/2/2010).
Maznah's mother weaving the accessories for the dance performance
About a few houses up the road lives Maznah, a singer cum dancer for the Mah Meri Dance Troupe.  We met her mother and two of her relatives who were busy weaving pandanus leaves for accessories and props for their performance in Langkawi today.  Maznah obliged us by singing a song composed by her brother, a singer song-writer, who is clinically depressed and unable to perform following a major heartbreak and a stroke.  
Gali, a consummate wood carver cum stage performer, lived diagonally across the street from Maznah.  Rather shy and suffering from 'carver's block', he humoured us with a brief take on wood carving for a living. 


The Silver-leafed Langurs
At about 3PM, we left Kampung Sungai Bumbun to head for Bukit Melawati to catch a glimpse of the Straits of Melaka from the historic hill.  As we drove up the winding road, we encountered relics from a brutal past - Perigi Berachun (Poisoned Well), Batu Hamparan (Execution Stone) and the Dutch Lighthouse - before parking by the rows of cannons, poised regally over the cliff.  The traffic congestion caused by the vehicles driving into and parking at the narrow islet and the cacophony caused by kids simultaneously feeding and hitting the hungry silver-leafed langurs and their babies with twigs robbed the silent sentinels of their deserved dignity. 


The Kampung Kuantan Fireflies Sanctuary
Finally, we found our way to the ticketing office, where we bought our tickets, and the boat jetty, where we boarded our tiny sampans for five (one rower and four adult passengers) to gasp at the flirtatious fireflies.  The 20 mins boat ride down the river and gliding by the habitat of the 'kelap-kelip' (literally, twinkling fireflies) - Beremban trees which grow in the river mouth -was well worth the RM10 we paid for each person.  I pledged that I could do away with all the artificial twinkling lights that graced porches and fences during Eid-ul Fitri or artificial trees and mall strips during Christmas for the rest of my life if it means the fireflies will continue to brighten up the mangrove swamps of Kuala Selangor.   






References:
http://www.mmail.com.my/content/31653-protect-mah-meri-culture]  
http://www.virtualtourist.com/travel/Asia/Malaysia/Kuala_Selangor-1280923/Things_To_Do-Kuala_Selangor-TG-C-1.html

Monday, November 21, 2011

Ganyang Malingsia?



Kemaskini:
'Wayang Wong Utan'
Setelah Harimau Muda mengalahkan Garuda 4-3 dan berjaya merangkul pingat emas sekaligus muncul sebagai juara perlawanan bola sepak Sukan SEA ke36, aktivis-aktivis Indonesia pula menuduh pengusaha ladang minyak sawit Malaysia sebagai pembunuh orang utan di Kalimantan, di sini:  
http://www.thejakartapost.com/news/2011/11/22/orangutan-defenders.html
Orangutan defenders: Activists from the Center for Orangutan Protection (COP) stage a rally in front of the Malaysian Embassy in Jakarta on Tuesday, rejecting the presence of Malaysian plantation firms that the activists say have brutalized orangutans and destroyed their habitats. (Antara/Dhoni Setiawan)

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Salam alaikum, rasa teruja saya semasa menghadiri Festival Filem Malaysia ke24 (FFM24) di PICC, Putrajaya, malam tadi bertukar hambar bila saya membaca kiriman blog tentang kejengkelan saudara 'serumpun' kita di sini:
Dalam kirimannya, Jailani Harun membicarakan tentang tulisan Wong Chun Wai dalam pojok mingguannya yang memperkatakan betapa layanan Indonesia yang buruk terhadap pasukan dan media Malaysia di acara Sukan SEA 2011 sesungguhnya memalukan negara tersebut, di sini:
Jailani atau Bujai juga memuatkan klip video dari blog Mazidul Akmal yang menunjukkan para pelajar Indonesia di Pulau Jawa membakar patung PM DS Najib Razak, di sini:
Bersama klip video YouTUbe yang terbaru itu, terdapat beberapa klip video yang membakar semangat Ganyang Malaysia dan me'rap'kan rasa meluat terhadap 'Malingsia'. Begitu juga dengan 'situs-situs benci', seperti di sini:
Apakah para pejuang kemerdekaan dan penyokong konsep Melayu Raya yang telah meninggal dunia, seperti Dr Burhanuddin al-Helmi dan ayah saya, 'berguling-guling di dalam pusara mereka' jika mereka tahu betapa bencinya pemuda, mahasiswa dan rakyat Indonesia kini terhadap Malaysia?
Jika diambil metafora hubungan kekeluargaan, perasaan jengkel rakyat RRI ini persis perasaan tidak redhanya seorang Abang atau Kakak terhadap kejayaan Adik kecilnya yang berusaha sedaya upaya untuk menjalin siratulrahim, membalas budi dan membantu saudara yang kurang bernasib baik.
Namun, walau apa pun yang Malaysia lakukan - membuka pintu seluas-luasnya kepada 3 juta rakyat Indonesia mencari rezeki, menyokong hasil seni karyawan Indonesia - buku, lagu, filem, drama sinetron Indonesia, dst dst - mereka tetap tidak menyimpan rasa kasih dan sayang, walau sekelumit pun, terhadap kita. Malah, seperti mana serang-serangan yang dihadapi dalam sempadan Malaysia, mereka menganggap kita sebagai 'bodoh' dan 'lemah'. Sungguh menyedihkan!

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Nak sidai ke tak sidai kain kotor di ampaian? (To air or not to air dirty linens in public?)

Salam alaikum, 
Maaf sdr/i yang sudi mengikuti blog saya yang tak seberapa ini.  Tanpa sedar, telah sebulan lebih saya tidak mengemaskini blog saya ini.  Tahu-tahu, sudah bertambah lima orang pengikut.  Justeru itu, saya berasa bersalah jika tiada bahan baru yang dipersembahkan.
Masalahnya bukan tiada bahan baru atau berkaitan.  Tapi bila saya mula menulis 9 bulan lalu, hanya untuk diri saya sendiri, lain perasaannya jika dibandingkan dengan menulis untuk pembaca yang mengikuti kiriman-kiriman yang mungkin menyentuh perasaan.  
Tidak dinafikan dalam penulisan memoir atau riwayat hidup, penulis perlu mengambil kira perasaan pelakon-pelakon yang terlibat, terutama ahli-ahli keluarga terdekat.  Masing-masing ada perspektif dan alasan sendiri tentang peristiwa dan tindakan masa lalu. Kecuali dalam keluarga yang mengamalkan demokrasi, di mana ahli-ahlinya yang merasa diri mereka ditindas ('oppressed' or bullied) mendapat pembelaan atau sekurang-kurangnya jawapan yang masuk akal.  
Lantas, amat sukar untuk mencari penyelesaian ('closure') bagi soalan-soalan yang tak terjawab, terutama apabila 99 peratus yang diperkatakan di belakang kita ('behind our backs') enggan dibawa di meja perundingan.  
Maka, ada kes di mana walau telah lebih tiga dekad berlalu, masih terdengarlah ungkitan melalui saudara mara dan jiran tetangga tentang betapa penatnya semua orang yang membantu menjayakan kenduri kahwin yang dilangsungkan dahulu.  Masalahnya dalam masyarakat Asia, terutamanya, saudara perempuan bongsu yang tiada pelindung ('protector') hampir tiada peluang membela diri.  Hanya mampu membayangkan skenario konfrontasi fantasi: 
"Sebab itulah I nak nikah kat masjid, nak bersanding kat dewan dulu.  Tapi you jugak yang nak buat kat rumah you, buat besar-besaran, tiga hari berturut-turut, jemput kawan-kawan you yang I tak kenal pun.  Dah 'tu tak habis-habis dengar you, orang gaji you, sepupu yang rapat dengan you, kawan you ungkit-ungkit sampai sekarang!"
Mendengus:
"Memang tak harus! I penat-penat buatkan majlis berinai, nikah, bersanding, you tak ingat!"
Jawab:     
"You nak I ingat, you nak I balas macam mana lagi?  You tak ingat yang I pun penat buat kerja - hiris daun pandan, siat bunga rampai, cuci pinggan, cuci bilik air, sampai lambat buat rambut kat salon, sampai lambat make-up.  Duit sewa khemah, duit belanja dapur sampai duit beli bawang yang you sebut-sebut pun, I bayar balik ansur-ansur.  Masa I sekolah, masa I kerja, masa I kat kampus, I jagakan anak-anak you, you pergi shopping, pergi holiday, sampai I tak sempat rehat, tak sempat buat kerja sekolah.  Bila I tegur anak you, you tak tegur I.  Bila I dah kahwin pun, I sanggup hantar anak-anak you pergi airport subuh-subuh sepi, dapatkan tempat kat kolej kat Amerika, temankan you jumpa bomoh bila anak-anak you degil, jadi alibi pada husband you.  Semua I sanggup buat, tapi I jugak yang salah bila anak you malas, tak suka belajar, ada boyfriend tak kerja, berpisah dengan suami ... Dah tu you kata pada dia yang dia bodoh, sebab I tolak dia, I busuk hati kahudu ...  Kalau I busuk hati, takde I bawak dia pergi klinik, I tunggu aje sampai you balik dari luar negeri ... I happy you dapat suami kaya, bertanggungjawab, dapat gelaran ... tapi kenapa you tak happy I naik form six, jadi wartawan, masuk universiti, belajar luar negeri, keluar tv?  Takkanlah sepanjang hidup I nak jagakan anak cucu you, duduk kat ceruk dapur you, jadi kambing hitam, ayam tambatan, door mat, punching bag  baru you happy?"
Phew, all in one breath! Out of my chest!
Tapi bagi ramai saudara bongsu di luar sana, yang tiada pelindung yang gagah perkasa, konfrontasi sebegitu hanya khalayan semata.  Dinamika kuasa dan penguasaan saluran propaganda keluarga tetap di tangan mereka yang ada autoriti.  
Makanya, terciptalah memoir, kisah kenang-kenangan seperti Chinese Cinderella oleh Adeline Yen Mah, anak kecil yang setiap pencapaian akademik diperlekehkan oleh abang-abang, kakak dan ibu tirinya.  Walaupun beliau cekal menghadapi deraan fizikal dan psikologi dari ibu tirinya sehingga berjaya melanjutkan pelajaran ke England dan menjadi pakar sakit puan di Amerika, namun selepas beberapa dasawarsa, luka lama hanya dapat dirawat melalui karya kreatifnya.



Begitu juga dengan Goodbye Lemon oleh Adam Davies, yang memendam rasa kesalnya tentang kematian abangnya yang setahun lebih tua darinya sehingga ia mencipta memori yang meleset dari kebenaran.  Keadaan ini berterusan hampir tiga dekad kerana keengganan bapanya menjelaskan perkara yang membawa kepada tragedi tersebut.  Sehinggalah bapanya diserang angin ahmar.('stroke'), dan ia hampir membunuh diri kerana ingin mendapatkan perhatian bapanya, barulah cerita sebenar terbongkar.     
Selagi penulis Asia berbelah bagi dalam menceritakan riwayat hidup sejujur dan seikhlas mungkin, selagi itulah kita sukar dapat membaca memoir seperti The Glass Castle dan Half Broke Horses yang dihasilkan oleh Jeanette Walls.